UGH!

Sometimes I wonder what it is that makes me want to take care of you. We fight and stay away from each other and ignore each other as much as possible, only to run to each other's side when the going gets tough for either. Why? Is it because we've been together for so long that caring for one another comes to us naturally? Or is this some kind of twisted love where you just cannot stand to see the other person get hurt?! Even when we are busy playing our stubborn selves, I go to all of your favourite hangouts hoping to run into you just so I could remind you that I exist..just so I could urge you to seek me out and sort out our differences..just because I am getting desperate to be in your arms again. Ugh! this thing called love! I wish I could just be immune to this twisted toxic thing that just rips your heart open and makes it inept for feeling anything for anyone else again. My friends say it's a pointless relationship. And if I ask myself, my head shares the same opinion. But my heart refuses to listen. Why does it keep making an exception for just this one person , I wonder! Maybe every one of us has that one special person in our life  for whom we are willing to put ourselves through misery over and over again. All I know is that I can count on you to be there for me when life hands out to  me all those lemons it's got saved up just for me! :D