to the guy who'll always hold my heart!

I met him when I was still in my teens. He was this scrawny little guy who just sat in one corner with his head buried in some magazine whilst his best friend , best friend's girlfriend and her friends were busy yapping away to glory. And so once we were introduced and all the pleasantries exchanged, i went back to fighting with his best friend. Little did I know then that i had just met THE guy who would hold my heart forever. Little did I know that buried in that magazine was my every joy and every sorrow. And so meeting up with this bunch of people became a routine. Hanging out with him was something i dreaded after the first day. But somewhere along the way it became the highlight of my day. He was witty, sarcastic to the core, smart , good looking and also TAKEN! well, so was I. So we drifted along as really good friends. Our friends broke up. But we still stayed friends. We broke up with our respective partners. But we still stayed friends. And then one fine day when i decided to date someone else, he popped up to tell me that it was a rebound and i shouldn't go ahead with it. To be completely honest. he was right. But I just couldn't understand why HE was so irritated about it. So I went ahead with it anyways only to realise later that he'd been right all along.  Let me tell you this, talking to him is the most fun thing I've ever done. I shoudl've known then that it was love. But the smart ass that i am , i just never saw it. And slowly i started crushing on him. Or rather, i admitted to myself that i've had a crush on him for a long time now.  And one fine day, he asked me out. FINALLY! I tried to tell him that it would be a mess if we broke up. I really didn't want to lose such a close friend of mine. But the stupid optimistic that i am , i decided to go ahead with it anyways. But, alas! I turned out to be just a rebound for him. It hurt....like crazy....and it continues to hurt....what i dint realize was that i had been in love with him all along. He went on to fall head over heels in love with this amazing person. But,somehow I am still in love with him. It's been 5 years since i met him...4 since i fel in love with him...2 since he broke my heart.....But I doubt any guy will ever  get to that special place he got to. He and I are really good friends now. But i continue to love him. Let's just hope he never finds out.